An Alchemical Moment ~ Jordis Fasheh

Jordis Fasheh, a friend and Companion of the School, tells how she found the Silent Eye at a pivotal point in her personal journey. At the moment when the Silent Eye officially came into being, Jordis was the first to step forward and join us…

Jordis as Nephthys, Land of the Exiles, 2014

How it came to be that I joined The Silent Eye, A Modern Mystery School.

It all started when I was ten years old. A child in search of something greater than herself. If I had read an Autobiography of a Yogi at that time things may have turned out differently. But I ran away from home one day, snuck on the subway and rode to the end of the line. Not knowing what it was I was searching for, when I disembarked from the train, the first thing I asked was, “where is the nearest Church.”

If I knew anything, it was that I had to find my voice. I spoke with God often but the weight of the outside world was over powering and I didn’t have the strength nor means to fight it. I became overly compliant and quiet and needed desperately to free myself.

A kind priest took me in and brought me to the Nuns. They fed me a warm tuna sandwich and asked how it came to be that I alighted upon their steps. While I tried to come up with some sort of tale, the priest brought me to the sanctuary and lit a candle.

We sat for a while and I shared that I ran away from home. He then asked if I knew where home was. I didn’t have an answer.

Finally, I said I could show him where I lived and he took me back to my family.

Several tumultuous years passed and my parents did the best they could but I left again at 16 to wonder on a path trying to find my way home.

One day my cousin Sylvia gave me a book written by Carlos Castaneda, “The Journey to Ixtlan,” which changed the course of my life in a positive way.

I read and studied all of his books. I then met a group of explorers who also studied Casteneda. They studied shamanism as well and one summer we met real shamans from Mexico City and we studied with them too.

Again, my life turned, I was becoming more aware and decided to become a paramedic as a way of service. I could probably write a book about those five years that contained a lifetime of experiences.

I studied everything I could get my hands on, every world religion; Buddhism, Taoism, Christianity, Judaism, Islam, Hinduism, and most philosophers.

During those years, I met two spiritual mentors that were Gnostic Christian. I became enchanted by their knowledge and their mystical practices. They introduced me to ritual theatre and opened up the world of symbolism to me. All of my studies aligned, and it was a huge turning point for me.

It was then that I came across Carl Jung’s “Mysterium Coniunctionis.” While I probably didn’t know a fraction of what he was talking about, I did know that there was truth in its interior and that an alchemical union was what would bridge the separation between me and my soul.

However, and I may have mentioned before that I have two very real sides to my personality. One the pragmatist and doer and the other the creative artist and dreamer.

Well, unlike my mentors, I had to work and earn money to survive. In my mind, a starving artist route would not a heroine make. So I dove into my work during the week and let my spirt explore on the weekends.

However, these conditions did nothing to help bridge the gap. I continued to feel separate and could often hear Bono from U2, belting, “I still haven’t found what I am looking for!”

I think most artists and people that feel, feel deeply and go through ebbs and tides and churning emotions. Not always fun, eh?

In my forties I dove deeper into mystical studies and embarked on several years of healing old wounds and making amends with my family.

Much of the healing work occurred during mystical retreats and playing characters that hit chords on a deep symbolic level.

One day, my mentors asked if I would like to join them in England to participate in a ritual weekend. The theme was “Alchemical Marriage,” and it was there that I met Steve Tanham, Sue Vincent and Stuart France.

Every fiber in my being stood up on end and the kundalini fired from head to toe. “This was it,” I knew it in my core.

 

Meeting Steve, Sue and Stu that weekend was just what the spiritual doctor ordered. They were loving, generous teachers who knew exactly what they were introducing to the world with the birthing of “The Silent Eye, A Modern Mystery School.”

Steve shared about his vision and how essential it is to bridge spiritual work with psychology. He explained that many people who follow a spiritual path often overlook psychological underpinnings that halt their progress to unity and letting go of separation.

I knew that well, as my undergraduate degree was in developmental psychology and wrote a thesis on introducing spiritual practices with psychotherapy.

Additionally, I have seen the phenomenon over and over in myself and in others. It is so prevalent, it has been labelled, “spiritual by pass.” Kind of like, “let’s ignore the elephant in the room and pretend we are one with God.” While we carry on and continue to feel separated from source, we continue to do hurtful things to the ones we love without understanding why. We practice service and kindness yet still feel empty inside.

As Steve spoke, I became more and more intrigued and eagerly joined all of the rituals and meditations during the weekend.

Early one morning, Stuart led a baptism ritual and after thorough preparation, we all knelt one by one as Stuart blessed us with oil and lifted our hearts in blessing. I felt cleansed and purified. Everything was as it is in perfection.

The following year, I attended the official ‘Birthing’ of the School at the Song of the Troubadour weekend. We all sauntered across the road and up a hill to conduct the ritual in the brisk cool air. We were greeted by a small lamb and were delighted as he sprang forth on the tall grass to guide us up the hill. It was around Easter weekend and the symbolism wasn’t lost on any of us. It felt great being greeted by spirit and welcomed by the land.

In another grand ritual Sue, Steve and Stu opened a gateway for the first students to go through. Of course, I was the first to jump up, enter the gateway and declare my intentions.

By the end of the weekend, I signed up for the first degree lessons.

While for me the study has taken longer than prescribed, it is all in good time. As we do work with the inner, our outer often transforms to facilitate a more unified way of being and living.

For me that meant moving a few times, changing jobs, loved ones passing and taking time to correct and adjust.

However, I just completed my second degree studies and have embarked on the third degree this past month.

The first two degrees were geared toward understanding the personality’s mechanisms and the subjects of object relations and polarities.

As I begin the third degree, I am fully present to what is, and completely aligned with spirit. I no longer feel separate, no longer alone, and am ready to engage with real spiritual work in the world.

The best I can describe it is my soul is driving the bus now. Not the other way around. While the personality has its strengths, the soul’s inner wisdom is far superior to anything my mind’s constructs can come up with.

It is a place of trust so pure and true and it took a great deal of work to get to this place of letting go at that level.

Now alive and awake in being, my soul is free to dance….For instance, I close my eyes, look within and am either riding a big wave, or dancing with the stars. The energy is freed up to play with joy.

What may come?

While the personality does not know, it has enough sense at this point to get out of the way.

And with a deep breath I take a wondrous dive into full being.

While transformation cannot be expressed fully in words as it exists on multiple levels, I can try by saying;

A drummer understands the sound of the universe’s heart beat.

A swimmer knows a wave’s zone.

A dancer in flight knows wind molecules,

My soul pirouettes with the divine and I am home.

I could not have gotten here without “The Silent Eye’s,” Founder Steve Tanham and Directors Sue Vincent and Stuart France. Lovely, accomplished, and generous souls.

Steve is my supervisor, a brilliant teacher and visionary. He is always patient and guides with his gentle and loving spirit. He sees through where one is stuck and gives insightful counsel to help you see for yourself.

The teachings blend rational science with ancient spiritual understanding. Steve, Sue and Stu are all very accomplished and knowledgeable yet being with them is as easy as can be. There is no pretence what so ever. However, there is a whole lot of love!

I will miss being with them this April for the Lord of the Deep workshop, as well as all of the companions. Unfortunately, I had lower back surgery this year and not quite healed. While I will not physically be with them in the Derbyshire Hills, I am always with them in heart and soul.


Read more of Jordis’ work and learn more about her at  Jordy’s Streamings


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21 thoughts on “An Alchemical Moment ~ Jordis Fasheh

    1. Wow, Jordis! I am so truly happy to meet you! I have just recently finished my first year of study, and I cannot come this year either, partly because of finances, and my significant other, Richard, is about to have a back surgery on his neck to I can empathize with you too. This is his second neck surgery, and it is to correct the first one which we were told could happen in any back surgery as I am sure you were too. Anyway, it is such a thrill to meet you and I think Steve sent me this, or perhaps Sue, or even Stuart. I think we have followed some of the same paths in life, and yes, I too read Carlos Castaneda, but it has been so truly long ago that I am unable to remember a lot anymore. I must reread these things for sure. I did do a lot of the spiritual searching that it sounds as though you did too, and I loved it. I have studied a lot of philosophy too, so knew that aspect but it was always lacking something, and now I understand better what it was.

      It is my joy to have you for a new friend in the study, and I do hope that I will someday get to meet you and all the other wonderful people connected with The Silent Eye. It has definitely made a huge impact on my life, and I am looking forward to more of it. I am now 77 and will turn 78 in November, so this is a great time in life to have something as magical and wonderful as this to make such a huge difference in my life. Thank you kindly for your writing. It is just excellent! I wish you well always. Anne

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      1. Greetings Anne! Lovely to hear more about you. I am so behind in reading posts, the job is sucking up too much time but it will settle down soon. I may plan to be in England in September. Are you in England? Can’t wait to meet you!! Soul path sister!!

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        1. Hi Jordy, I understand what you mean. I used to teach and work with special needs children, but I have not been working for several years. It is strange that I am busier now and working harder than when I was actually working! I wish I were in England. I have come to love the place so much, and yes, I feel you are also a soul path sister. Thank you so kindly. I too have a lot of posts and e-mails to read – last time I looked 977! My eyes will fall out first I expect. Have a great week and I am keeping you in my thoughts to feel better and be all healed up. Anne

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  1. It is always wonderful to read of a lost soul finding her place in this world, and that the three musketeers were instrumental! They have helped me too, even though I am on the outside looking in…

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  2. What I would do to one day be in the position to take a few of the classes and actually go up to Scotland and see for myself and walk through the doorways that Sue opens. Now, I shall Dream of it as my own future. I am going to reset my WordPress page and start over soon, or just rearrange it and put what has been done on a page and move on from there. It turns out I love to write. Who knew, OH’ yes, Jordis. LOL…

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