In brief…

As the majority of our friends and readers will now know, I was rushed into hospital last week in a very bad way. I would like to say a HUGE thank you to everyone who has sent good wishes through all the various social media platforms, through the comments, by email, snail mail, text and phone. And to the friends wh have kept me company across the miles with tales of normality and laughter.

I am sorry if it has taken a while to respond to everyone individually, I am really rather unwell and my energy levels are a tad variable.

At a time when the Covid restrictions mean that even close family cannot visit, it has meant a very great deal to be touched by so much love, friendship and kindness. Trying to process the changes that serious illness has and will impose upon us as individuals and as families is always difficult. Just now, when we cannot even see our nearest and dearest, cannot give each other a hug, hold a hand… or even discuss the practicalities face to face, it is particularly harrowing. The feeling of utter isolation is terrible, and the care shown by family and friends, albeit remotely, matters more than ever.

This week has been a journey from looking death right in the eye as I failed to breathe at all, through relief as litres of fluid were drained from around my heart, to a sliver of hope.  I have had a series of tests and procedures, and some exceedingly unpleasant biopsies, for which I still await the definitive results. One thing that is clear, however, is that I do have a lung collapsed by cancer.

They let me come home last night, until the results are in. The dog thinks it is hilarious as I too am now being kept on a short leash, attached by tubes to the oxygen extractor occupying way too much of my living room and not letting me out the front door.

I am being well looked after, the small dog seems glad to have me home. I am being well fed and cared for now I am home… and all I need right now are answers.

Thank you to everyone who has held my hand through this first rather shocking stage of the journey. Especially my friend, Mary Smith, with whom I have a date in spring at Cairn Holy when hopefully both of us will be in a rather better state than we are now.

119 thoughts on “In brief…

    1. I am praying for you today, Sue. For your healing, peace, and restoration, in the name of Jesus. I’ll keep you in my thoughts and prayers in the days ahead as I remember you. I am glad you have plans for this adventure with your dear friend and it will be nice to read about it in the future posts on your blog. ❤


  1. Thanks for this update. So glad you are home, as is the small dog I’m sure. Not a good time to be ill but then I guess it’s never a good time to be sick. I’ve been thinking about you a lot, with lots of love and hope in my heart. 💗

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      1. Nope. There isn’t. But there’s an awful lot of it done, as you must know. I once knew – very well, actually – a lady who, on that account, I used to call the ostrich. What was that line by Eliot – ‘Human kind cannot stand very much reality’?


  2. I read Mary Smith’s blog, and that is where I first heard about your similar dilemma’s.

    Prayers to both Mary and you that y’all emerge from your struggles and enjoy life with your families for many more years.

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  3. Great to detect the strength and hope in your words and attitude, Sue. I’m rooting for you all the way. Curses on these horrid cancers. (Husband and I both,luckily, beat them…) Thinking positive thoughts. Love Joy xx

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  4. I’m sure the small dog was extremely pleased her two-legs was home, tubes and all. And I am also sure that the two-legs enjoyed some good, non-hospital food! I’m glad they were able to relieve the worst of it. I hope you enjoy time at home as you await the treatments.

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  5. The good thing about four-legs is they tend to be awake at times when two legs aren’t and mine are on thinking duty to you and Mary during the wee small hours when life seems bleakest. We’re sending you all our strength and hugs to help you through.

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  6. I am so glad to know you are at least home, Sue. I am sure Ani is happy and I assume there is someone there assisting you from what you’ve said. Not the easiest time to be sick and that’s a fact. I am glad that Mary and you have set a goal. I look forward to reading about your journey to Cairn Holy and also seeing pictures of Mary’s flowers that she is planting.

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  7. Glad you are home where you are getting decent food (yes!) and resting in your own bed with Ani by your side. I think of you often during the day, and send a beacon of loving, healing thoughts out to you. Like Mary, you’re going to kick this thing’s butt! 😉 ❤

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    1. Thanks, Eliza. It makes such a huge difference to know people care enough to do that. Especially at the moment, when so many parts of the community are still quiet and isolated, all support genuinely helps xx

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  8. Heavens to Murgatriod!!! I go away for ten days and cancer nearly kills you!!! I’m never going away again!!! .. we only got home late this afternoon ( Sunday) and I read Ani’s update with great consternation, so this extra update is welcome indeed.
    I’m going to go and unpack a few more things with a much lighter heart. All my love and a gazillion hugs, dear friend.
    I’m very, very, very glad you didn’t die … as are you, I’m sure. : )

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  9. Oh Sue. I’m so glad you’re back home, and I’m sure Ani is too. I’m so very sorry to hear your news though and am sending lots of love and light and good healing wishes. You’ll be walking the mountains again soon! (and I hope I can join you at some point) xx

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  10. I’m following the journey you and Mary are going through with love, sadness, faith, and many, many prayers for both of you. You have such a deep soul, Sue, that I know this will help you get through the path you need to follow to health. Thanks for blogging to us and letting us be your cheering section – always. With a huge hug, Pam

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  11. Warm feet courtesy of Ani, good food and a trip to Cairn Holy in the spring.. enough time for you and Mary to get those kick-ass boots on and I’ll kick ass with my trusty flip flops just to make sure…I look forward to reading both your posts on your shenanigans…Buddhas healing coming your way 🙂 xx


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